Ethics of Character and Personality

I was asked for this week's assignment in my Portfolio to talked about my ethics and personality.


When I really think about, I guess you could say that I wear two faces. One is something that only my close friends, family, and even people in my classes get to see, but another is a side that I chose to show to strangers because I feel insecure about how they may accept my true self. This mask was created when I was still in grade school and I was mercilessly teased for being different.


My 'public' face you could say is reserved, quiet, and shy. This side of me rarely talks or share personal views. I guess I know that a few of my views or personally values are not too popular with certain people and I don't wish to cause division, so I keep allot of my ideas to myself. As stated earlier, I was bullied as a kid and my reserved personality was created so I could be more friendly and get more people to like me. Regardless of the fact that I went to college and had a more open pool to share my thoughts and ideas, allot of my reserved personality still reminds.


Another factor in my shy demeanor is my voice. Since I started school I had always had speech problems and it made it hard for people to understand me. The main weapon my bullies used against me was how I sounded 'strange'. As you saw from my introduction video, I has an accent, despite the fact that my first and only language is english and I only left the country once in 2008. I feel very aware when I talk and what people may think of me. I had some in my school that thought I was mentally retarded.


My true self, which is shown when I get comfortable with people, is blunt, somewhat mean when provoke, and has a dark/crude sense of humor. I can be too blunt and say things I most likely shouldn't say out loud. I also found I have a loud speaking voice that caused people to hush me, which annoys me. I feel I should be able to speak my views out loud to my friends without some stranger given me nasty looks. Especially when it comes to politics and religion discussions.


I think the most dividing factor with me is that my humor can get on some people's nerves. Namely I like to make fun of awkward situations, mostly myself and my brother, and it can come off wrong if the person doesn't know where I am coming from. Which causes allot of walk back to get my foot out of my mouth. This maybe why I don't like to talk when I don't know people since my communication seems to suck at best at times.


When I do talk to people, I prefer to talk about school and if I am really comfortable questions of ethics, philosophy, and even religion. I this really happened after my first year in college when I really had a taste to have discussion with people who all had diverse ideas and morals, which really expanded my mind and spirit. It also gave me a new insight into my own religion and how I see the world. It also allowed me to see the other side of people's beliefs.


Of course, I do enjoy talking about art and video games. However, it's hard to find people who are willing to discuss video games in an intellect and artist way. The only person I really have is my brother, who shares allot of my interest.


This pretty much discussed me in a nutshell, give or take a few details. I am not the easiest person to get along with and my years of being bully had made me kind of a loner. However, I can be pleasant, friendly, and I do think I can be a good friend.